Friday, November 25, 2005

on a lighter note

on a lighter note.....

one more to go while many of them have finnished their whole ordeal... actually it's no big deal, just another period of serious-forced-studying, we get that forever in life, but everybody, including myself, make it sound as if it's between life and death, but of coz, if i failed, i'll be down lar, n gu fu my folks n whoever, cos it involves big $ now, but can live with that...anyhow, one more paper but no drive again so i blog, alhtough got nothing to tok about.....anyway, kei n serene say that my entry is getting more n more incomprehensive n obviously on the depressing side, really mer, i think it's cos i tok bout things which are not related to them at all, i was merely commenting on the Aceh situation, which actually none of my business too lar....and of cos it's one addition to my so many complain of how idiot ppl can be, doing stuffs that just arent necessary n destructive.....my mother say that i am forever critisizing how idiot ppl are but as if i myself is that great, and know so much and can do better like that....hahaha..it's true lar....i got very idiotic mouth...i think if i grow old i'll become those super naggy old ah mah, so i mus constantly remind the ppl around me to remind me to stop really turning into one, ouww shit, maybe i'm already one now.....toking about when i grow older, i am scared, really scared, i have been scared, the tot of growing is always horrible, terrible, horrigible, i'm toking bout losing ppl around u, unavoidable i know, dun wan to imagine...aaaarghhhhh, i'm getting depressing again, oie, be happy....tok bout happy thing, holiday is coming, xmas coming,...wot the fuck...btw, i still catch the survivor series, or at least started to follow in the middle of the way, cos my bro always watch, still entertaining actually, anyway, i like this Gary old man, he is an ex-NFL guy,he is soooooo happening man, although a lot of ppl kinda dun really like him, like him, but jus okay with him, he is not macho and tanned like other younger guys whom i usually watched for and are huge part of the reason i follow the series...but man, he always won immunity, he is so strong, but that week he lost, it was obvious he was the next one out, but, man, he is so so awesome. long b4 that episode, the host announced that laid hidden in the jungle was this tingy they could use if they wanna protect themselves during council, everybody was searching high and low for weeks...then that week when he lost, the reward challenge stake was the clue to that hidden location and that fat judd got it and knew that the place was up in a tree, judd was such a doggy to stephanie n that bitch told him to lie to the rest that it was on the ground. Aniwae, nearing the council, Gary tried to get his last chance of survival of cos, n if i'm one of the players, i would vote him too of cos, he was tooo strong! so at the council, when the host asked if anibody had found n wanna use it, nobody stirred for sooo long, i tot it's adieu to my old man, but man, he got it! n everybody's facial expression was like ' shit, scary siah this guy', man, he was good!!! aniwae, he got voted out lar yesterday, cant be helped, he was waaaaay toooooo strong, ppl were scared of him. I jus dun understand, ppl just dun see that stephanie is the true biatch!! and everybody, i dun know, is her dog in the game, she is like telling ppl to do this and that n those ppl dun realise, she used them now n the next target the next week were themselves...she was sly, clever lar....the way somebody should play the game...but wotever, i dun like that bitch!!! so now, i like that Rafe, the gay, i think he is, he toks like one, i dunno if anibody notice...actually there is something nice and good-looking in every natural gay, not the macho type u see loitering in front of orchard california fitness centre of coz....anyway i hope that steph gone!!! even if she is not n gone to be the last two, i hope the jury see how bitch she is n she wont win that huge $ for the 2nd time she played the game, hahaha.....aniwae, the point is, very coincidental, i dislike stephanie from survivor and dun fancy steph. sun the singer while ppl all worship her, and so on and so on, her name is stephanie, again.......get it get it? wooowwww.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

i dunno

dunno...

will it be forever, or for very long time at least....is it gonna be all over at last for Aceh and gam...
how many times they tried and signed? i dunno, i am a pessimist.....whose fault? but still, 15 000 lives over that small plot of land.....is it worth it? took so long to realise it? 30 years man, hope there are no some bunch of idiots who spoil things later on......
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

we all eventually suck?

We all eventually become sucky?

this is wot i think...always think.....
although sounds crap n ridiculous, but i still think it's true....
we all eventually will become sucky people and idiots, although it's to different extent for different people...

so many great things accomplished..well i got nothing to say man..they are great, thomas edison's great, einstein's great, then the whoever guy who discover vaccine......i salute....
but there lots of other sucky stuffs happened too.....some political, religious, social, economic stuffs, i rather not mention, in case i kena sued and jailed and fined....

not that i dun appreciate accomplishments, they really benefit and save lives......
but i think even more destructive and torturous the degree of effect that stupid idiotic moron-ic and pervertic stuffs that those stupid idiotic moron-ic and pervertic people (which are just much more in numbers) bring to ppl....so far.......

and who are these stupid idiotic moron-ic and pervertic ppl? they are adults!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not kids......although there are some disturbed kids who bring guns and kill everybody in sight...but i'm not toking bout these type of idiotic deeds.....

every bad thing that happen now and last time and whenever, sure there is at least one stupid adult who start it right...seee......they are adults but cant think properly....they do stupid things create stupid and redundant system and rules...
yah lar, some of them eventually achieve great things although they slaughter many victims, yah lar, cant really imagine how history would turn out if these things didnt occur...like the qing shi wang....watever.....i dun care....cos i not really toking bout these....

so....aaargh...everyone of us going to grow into adults....and it means we are going to be idiots too...............
who knows i maybe the next who is unhappy about i dunno wot stuff and start gathering some ridiculously easily influenced ppl and start burning and blasting ppl and property off everynow and then.......in the future, when i become an adult....

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Monday, November 21, 2005

xmas

xmas around the corner

all the xmas commercial sooooooo soon? man, i'm not ready, not yet in holiday mood.....
i like the feelings xmas gives....,although i'm nt christian...., nothing got to do with the religion....i like the xmas songs they play everywhere in supermarts when the it's around the corner, although many find it irritating....
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Thursday, November 17, 2005

thinking...

Thinking...

So today is traumatising......
there are 3x warning, so i got 2 more sems to keep my place in school....
anyway....watever it is, it's over......
wanna watch emily rose after lunch today with yuyun n serene but the timing sux....maybe it's a sign, a warning..that i shouldnt..i should buck up.....
28th nov...hurry uuuuuup!!!!!!!
4 more papers stand between me and harry potter......

just thinking: perception to life will be better if we treat life like a game....
it's all bout getting to the next level....it's all about getting through the hurdles and stages.....
jus like life, we need to get through difficulties to move on....exams, illness, problems, lost, are all the hurdles.....so tell urself, jus get through them, and all will be fine....
right????
eh....
but.....
in games, if we failed to get pass a stage, we can retry o r start all over, but in real life...oh no....oh no..........once dead, we can revive....
oh no....
hoooow...
must think of another
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Monday, November 14, 2005

so so dead....

Sooo sooo dead....

Another day gone....gonna be dead....real dead...so inefficient....

part of the reason is...i still got the cheek to watch show n be out whole day.....
anyway i watched sky high..lame but entertaining.....with....who else....kei....
that Warren fire guy is kinda cool....i wan super power toooooooooooooo

n today, i was malu-ating myself at the bus stop outside the sgh..damn....i was acting cool by sitting at the bus stop seats when everyone else had stood up and stood at the back trying to avoid the sudden huge rain and from getting them wet....actually..i was not acting cool....i am cool! i was still thinking to myself 'nvmind, the rain wont get me..'
but wtf, suddenly one car drove past n "wooooosh!!!!!"
the rain water on the road splashed all over my body....my shirt n pants wet...my face....dripping rain water...lucky the road in Spore is clean....if i was in Indo, my face would be dripping brown murky rain water!!!!! Swear man, impossible, i tot the car wasnt too near, the speed was also just like any other earlier cars that passed by...no water splashed..but then how come....

Aaargh...so maaaaaaalu........cos at the bus stop got lots of ppl...n all of them stood at the back....they mus be thinking " 2 stupid ppl sitting there waiting for the rain to drench them and they got it, hahahaha" ...........wtf...

but yah..me not the only one......there was this guy who sat right next to me, he also nv stood back when the rain suddenly poured....so he got splashed too..... then we were like looking at each other feeling soooooo lang bei...i think we would have blurted out ' that son of a bitch driver, that knnbccb!!!!!!!!!' ...but of cos cannot......so we only ended up saying 'waaaaaaaaa' to each other.......then i told kei, the point being that at least i was not the only one looking like wet loser....but she told me that i should have striked up converastion n hit on that guy, oh btw..that guy looks like student too, young n...student looking?..anyway...back to wot kei said....'YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, why i nv grab the chance!!!??? maybe we are i nthe same school ler??he nt bad looking somemore, i think, i dun remember the face actually.....sounds like boy crazy...but of cos im not.....anyway..i was so drenched..w/o thinking, i crossed the overhead bridge, wanting to go home, but i was out of house already n i need to pass up report...so i crossed the bridge but ended up taking mrt....wot a loser....
n wot the hell am i doing......bloggging...bleh.....study man, study...but no drive...2 weeks to freedom....but dun dare think of the outcome, really.....
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Sunday, November 13, 2005

Blind by Lifehouse

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go



Haiz...........................
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Saturday, November 12, 2005

blind by lifhouse

Blind by Lifehouse

So saaad...the song just sounded soooooo sad, the way the lead sings the lyrics so unclear..cos he is just sad man, saaaaad......the tune the voice soooooooo saaaad, so niiiice.....but hte lyrics sounded like gay or some homo...or maybe not lar.....
soooooooooooooo saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadd......
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

photograph

"Photograph" by Nickleback

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if It's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking forIt's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it

So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me
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Friday, November 04, 2005

Men are not born corrupt. Ideology corrupts them.

Glaring Fact...rational thinking

Men are not born corrupt. Ideology corrupts them.
Varun is so so so logical.....too bad cant be like you....
i am not that brave...........i dun wan to be jailed......
but watever......it's a known fact anyway, it's tooooo evident.....everybody knows that but jus dun say it out....
Only one way out, uproot the tree,the whole thing is the poisonous branch that stems from the trunk, until you uproot the whole tree, that poisonous branch will keep shooting up
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